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2018 A Year In Review: Part 2

2018 A year in Review

Part 2

The Year of Commitment

I am not a disciplined person. If you spent a minute to read Part One of this year’s review you’d see I barely scraped by with New year goals for 2018. It’s honestly never even been a goal of mine (to be more disciplined) but here I sit in 2019 and I really need it. Now the word discipline sounds awful to me, very restricting and suffocating so I’m going with Commitment. I’ve let creativity and honesty be my greatest characteristics for so long and while I love those parts about me, it’s starting to feel like I’m not super involved in my happiness. Because I don’t push myself to stay on track or finish a goal, I’m really just letting my days pass by. I want to be more committed this year to more than just my business and husband because i have the capacity for more. I want to fully commit 2019 to achieving personal goals, lifestyle changes and ambitions. I want to feel successful, this time next year and like some or even all of the intentions below were really invested in.

I want to be active and exercise everyday.

I want to eat better and learn more about what my body can handle and can’t.

I want to limit the amount of time I spend watching tv and comparing myself to others on the internet.

I want to be way more selfless to my partner ( like i want to be one of those wives everyone thinks loves their husband TOO much and does TOO much for his arrogant ass) Because that’s not at all me and probably wont ever be but I want to give it a try :P

I want to photograph more and more births, and meet more women who just understand that birth and art can truly be melded together and that it’s worth it to invest in your moments.

I want to meet more people and like more people unconditionally.

I want to learn how to love myself too and be proud of where I am.

I want to get back into my painting, drawing and journaling. That used to be my way of finding peace, calming anxiety and expressing my heart but now a days I just pour a glass of wine and watch the Office and hope the anxiety will go away.

I want to not sleep in so much (even though I love it) a successful person gets up early and I want a little more feeling of that success.

These aren’t really my “goals” per say because I really can’t take another year of feeling like I achieved no personal goals. But they are my ambitions for this coming year and I am speaking it into existence right now that I will be a more committed person. It doesn’t happen overnight and I’m trying to be more gracious about that but I’m also trying to look at the word committed and discipline not as a sentencing to a boring life but to a better and happier life because I’m putting more into it rather than letting it happen to me.

2018 was a happy year. I got to photograph so many stories that have shaped me for the better. My business grew from a little transplanted seedling to a full on garden that is still growing. I traveled and saw elephants, lions, leopards and all the other African animals so many may never see. I created a project I’m so proud of called The Motherhood Project that allowed me to get creative and learn so much more about womanhood and motherhood; thank you Lindsay for making this past year and project so amazing. So please do not misunderstand my goals for 2019, they are coming from a place of wanting to just be committed to the changes I want to see and opening myself to have the capacity to really experience more.

Thank you to all my people and I look forward to another year creating! If you’ve chosen a name for 2019 I would love to hear it so please leave it in the comments!

And of course this collection of images below are my favorites(atleast part two of my favorites), they are full of the raw and powerful quality I want my work to express. There is nudity and there is blood in some of my work, yes, but I think there is so much power and beauty in our bodies and I just couldn’t censor my favorites. All photos have been approved and released by the client for sharing.

2018 A Year in Review | Hanna Hill Photography | Durham Raleigh Birth and Family Photographer
2018 A Year in Review | Hanna Hill Photography | Durham Raleigh Birth and Family Photographer
2018 A Year in Review | Hanna Hill Photography | Durham Raleigh Birth and Family Photographer
2018 A Year in Review | Hanna Hill Photography | Durham Raleigh Birth and Family Photographer
2018 A Year in Review | Hanna Hill Photography | Durham Raleigh Birth and Family Photographer
2018 A Year in Review | Hanna Hill Photography | Durham Raleigh Birth and Family Photographer
2018 A Year in Review | Hanna Hill Photography | Durham Raleigh Birth and Family Photographer
2018 A Year in Review | Hanna Hill Photography | Durham Raleigh Birth and Family Photographer
2018 A Year in Review | Hanna Hill Photography | Durham Raleigh Birth and Family Photographer
2018 A Year in Review | Hanna Hill Photography | Durham Raleigh Birth and Family Photographer
2018 A Year in Review | Hanna Hill Photography | Durham Raleigh Birth and Family Photographer
2018 A Year in Review | Hanna Hill Photography | Durham Raleigh Birth and Family Photographer
2018 A Year in Review | Hanna Hill Photography | Durham Raleigh Birth and Family Photographer
2018 A Year in Review | Hanna Hill Photography | Durham Raleigh Birth and Family Photographer
2018 A Year in Review | Hanna Hill Photography | Durham Raleigh Birth and Family Photographer
2018 A Year in Review | Hanna Hill Photography | Durham Raleigh Birth and Family Photographer
2018 A Year in Review | Hanna Hill Photography | Durham Raleigh Birth and Family Photographer
2018 A Year in Review | Hanna Hill Photography | Durham Raleigh Birth and Family Photographer
2018 A Year in Review | Hanna Hill Photography | Durham Raleigh Birth and Family Photographer
2018 A Year in Review | Hanna Hill Photography | Durham Raleigh Birth and Family Photographer
2018 A Year in Review | Hanna Hill Photography | Durham Raleigh Birth and Family Photographer
2018 A Year in Review | Hanna Hill Photography | Durham Raleigh Birth and Family Photographer
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2018 A Year in Review | Hanna Hill Photography | Durham Raleigh Birth and Family Photographer
2018 A Year in Review | Hanna Hill Photography | Durham Raleigh Birth and Family Photographer
2018 A Year in Review | Hanna Hill Photography | Durham Raleigh Birth and Family Photographer
2018 A Year in Review | Hanna Hill Photography | Durham Raleigh Birth and Family Photographer
2018 A Year in Review | Hanna Hill Photography | Durham Raleigh Birth and Family Photographer
2018 A Year in Review | Hanna Hill Photography | Durham Raleigh Birth and Family Photographer
2018 A Year in Review | Hanna Hill Photography | Durham Raleigh Birth and Family Photographer
2018 A Year in Review | Hanna Hill Photography | Durham Raleigh Birth and Family Photographer
2018 A Year in Review | Hanna Hill Photography | Durham Raleigh Birth and Family Photographer
2018 A Year in Review | Hanna Hill Photography | Durham Raleigh Birth and Family Photographer
2018 A Year in Review | Hanna Hill Photography | Durham Raleigh Birth and Family Photographer
2018 A Year in Review | Hanna Hill Photography | Durham Raleigh Birth and Family Photographer
2018 A Year in Review | Hanna Hill Photography | Durham Raleigh Birth and Family Photographer
2018 A Year in Review | Hanna Hill Photography | Durham Raleigh Birth and Family Photographer
2018 A Year in Review | Hanna Hill Photography | Durham Raleigh Birth and Family Photographer
2018 A Year in Review | Hanna Hill Photography | Durham Raleigh Birth and Family Photographer
2018 A Year in Review | Hanna Hill Photography | Durham Raleigh Birth and Family Photographer
2018 A Year in Review | Hanna Hill Photography | Durham Raleigh Birth and Family Photographer
2018 A Year in Review | Hanna Hill Photography | Durham Raleigh Birth and Family Photographer
2018 A Year in Review | Hanna Hill Photography | Durham Raleigh Birth and Family Photographer
2018 A Year in Review | Hanna Hill Photography | Durham Raleigh Birth and Family Photographer
2018 A Year in Review | Hanna Hill Photography | Durham Raleigh Birth and Family Photographer
2018 A Year in Review | Hanna Hill Photography | Durham Raleigh Birth and Family Photographer
2018 A Year in Review | Hanna Hill Photography | Durham Raleigh Birth and Family Photographer
2018 A Year in Review | Hanna Hill Photography | Durham Raleigh Birth and Family Photographer
2018 A Year in Review | Hanna Hill Photography | Durham Raleigh Birth and Family Photographer
2018 A Year in Review | Hanna Hill Photography | Durham Raleigh Birth and Family Photographer
2018 A Year in Review | Hanna Hill Photography | Durham Raleigh Birth and Family Photographer
2018 A Year in Review | Hanna Hill Photography | Durham Raleigh Birth and Family Photographer
2018 A Year in Review | Hanna Hill Photography | Durham Raleigh Birth and Family Photographer
2018 A Year in Review | Hanna Hill Photography | Durham Raleigh Birth and Family Photographer
2018 A Year in Review | Hanna Hill Photography | Durham Raleigh Birth and Family Photographer
2018 A Year in Review | Hanna Hill Photography | Durham Raleigh Birth and Family Photographer

2016: Part 1 a Year in Review | New Years Traditions

So I'm sure you know its New Years Eve and I thought along with my little photographic review I'd let you in a little into my heart and why I cherish this holiday so much.

2016: Year in Review | New Years Traditions | Kansas City, MO Lifestyle Photography | Hanna Hill Photography | Climbing Machu Picchu, Peru
2016: Year in Review | New Years Traditions | Kansas City, MO Lifestyle Photography | Hanna Hill Photography

For me its a renewal of my life and always a moment I can accept some grace for the person I have been in 2016.  I've met some years where I look on to January 1st like I'm looking through a window with optimism and clarity. I am fierce and grounded and call my next year by its name.  These years a truly gifts of rest and healing but they are not the ones that have taught me truth nor the ones that have shown me light. 

2016: Year in Review | New Years Traditions | Kansas City, MO Lifestyle Photography | Hanna Hill Photography | The Moa of Easter Island
2016: Year in Review | New Years Traditions | Kansas City, MO Lifestyle Photography | Hanna Hill Photography | The Falls of Iguazu, Argentina
2016: Year in Review | New Years Traditions | Kansas City, MO Lifestyle Photography | Hanna Hill Photography | The beautiful Blue Andes from Bariloche, Argentina

Its the Years where I'm standing at what feels like a base of a mountain looking up into a foggy and concealed unknown that have taught me what it looks like to rely on something other than myself. I simply know it's a steep climb but can barely see my feet below me. These are the years I have faced loss, darkness, fear and weakness. These are the years that have made me who I am as an artist, woman and storyteller. 

2016: Year in Review | New Years Traditions | Kansas City, MO Lifestyle Photography | Hanna Hill Photography | Motherhood is intimate and beautiful
2016: Year in Review | New Years Traditions | Kansas City, MO Lifestyle Photography | Hanna Hill Photography | Family life 
2016: Year in Review | New Years Traditions | Kansas City, MO Lifestyle Photography | Hanna Hill Photography | New home with a  beautiful couple 

I have a tradition that started a few years ago that encompasses my way to bring in the new year whichever season. Every New Years Eve I spend sometime writing down things I need to let go of from 2016. Things I need to stop regretting, things I need to forgive myself for or others, fears that I keep hidden or lies I like to tell myself. I write them down on slips of paper or just a list and put it aside. Then I write down a lot of hopes, the things I want to happen in 2017 that I don't have control over and the things I'm too afraid to hope for, for fear they will let me down. Then after all of that I put it aside and go party. I celebrate the new year with whoever is around and mark the moment as best I can. 

2016: Year in Review | New Years Traditions | Kansas City, MO Lifestyle Photography | Hanna Hill Photography | 10 year anniversary and still in love
2016: Year in Review | New Years Traditions | Kansas City, MO Lifestyle Photography | Hanna Hill Photography | Peaceful moments of a special needs family
2016: Year in Review | New Years Traditions | Kansas City, MO Lifestyle Photography | Hanna Hill Photography |Sunrise is the most beautiful time for Family sessions

This little tradition is a bit of a two parter because New years is a bit of a two parter. New Years day is for sleeping in and drinking coffee and letting go of 2016 hopes and fears and all and looking forward to the new day. This letting go for me has always needed to be physical.  I think it comes out of a long tradition of women who love to collect. I know I'd keep those lists in a journal somewhere, written eloquently and emotive so I can go back to them with worry all through out the year. But for me thats not letting them go thats holding on to them tightly so  sometimes I burn my lists, once i went to the ocean and folded them up like airplanes and through them into the sea but I think this year i'll bury them.

2016: Year in Review | New Years Traditions | Kansas City, MO Lifestyle Photography | Hanna Hill Photography | fatherhood can be vulnerable
2016: Year in Review | New Years Traditions | Kansas City, MO Lifestyle Photography | Hanna Hill Photography | Family enjoying each other in the Sunflowers
2016: Year in Review | New Years Traditions | Kansas City, MO Lifestyle Photography | Hanna Hill Photography | A beautiful bride on her Wedding Day
2016: Year in Review | New Years Traditions | Kansas City, MO Lifestyle Photography | Hanna Hill Photography | Baby in the sink bath

Lastly I like to name my year. Of course I've been thinking about this word that will define my year for the last couple weeks but I like to wait to name it till January 1st. In the last couple years I have had years called Hope, Bravery and 'Let it Go.'

Tomorrow I'll post my first post of the New Year, with my name for 2017 and some exciting hopes for Hannahill Photography. Plus the second half 2016's photographic review!

2016: Year in Review | New Years Traditions | Kansas City, MO Lifestyle Photography | Hanna Hill Photography | A beautiful engagement session at sunset 
2016: Year in Review | New Years Traditions | Kansas City, MO Lifestyle Photography | Hanna Hill Photography | kate our little adventurer