In Home Raleigh Engagement Session
Samuel M. In Home Lifestyle Newborn Session |
Raleigh Birth & Newborn Photographer
"I hope you don't mind
that I put down in words
how wonderful life is,
now you're in the world"
You may not be an Elton John fan but that song still to this day plays in my head when I photograph newborn sessions. Pretty much any session with babies where it feels like the whole world has just changed because that little one is finally here. Even as a photographer I can feel the shift each time I come into a family's home to photograph the sweet newborn season. Things are quieter, messier and oh so much slower. It's a beautiful thing when a new baby can help a family slow down and take stock of the joy and gifts they have.
Yes of course along with this transition and joy comes exhaustion and change but with Samuel's Newborn session the main thing I kept thinking was, this little one has brought so much joy and peace. He has filled a space in this home that was once empty. As the bright morning light poured in all around our session, little Samuel dozed off to sleep. It was serene, he wasn't too fussy and he truly wanted simply be close to his mom and dad. It was a beautiful thing to watch.
Lifestyle Newborn Sessions have such an energy and personality to them and I love that. Everything from the way they decorate their home to their affectionate touches all plays into this beautiful story of their family. These are candid celebrations of who Samuel is and how his joyful childhood will continue and I get to be the first to capture that part of their story. It's a true honor.
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Alex & John: Fall Wedding in Downtown Joplin, MO
I love how Wedding days are sometimes simply the beautiful celebration of a love story. It's not the first day or the last but the gathering of all the people you love to watch you truly commit yourself to another person. You get to honor the friends and family who have walked by your side through life and gift a beautiful party to the community created when two lives unite. I love that about weddings! Especially when they are as laid back, fun and beautiful as Alex and John's day. I'm excited to finally share it as they approach almost 5 months of marriage!
We started the day at Alex's family home. It was filled to the brim with family, wedding party, dogs, babies and so much pure energy and love. I remember walking in to find Alex completely calm, maybe a little overwhelmed by the rain starting to drop outside or the last minute details but her spirit was light and joyful.
We took some time to shut out the chaos and just have a moment with her and her sweet mom to get the wedding dress on. Those moments in her mom's bedroom really resonated with me. Thinking about all the times I'm sure her mom helped her dress growing up as a little girl and now being able to fasten the last button on her elegant wedding dress.
All the while John was on the hunt for his tie :P He found it just in time to do their First look in the hiking path behind their house. It was a little muddy and the rain had started to drizzle but John and Alex were just so ready to see each other I'm not sure they even noticed. Those moments were sweet, intimate and quick as the rain started to really pour and we rain back to the house for cover.
Next stop was downtown Joplin. A place I honestly had not been but was truly impressed by. I love big cities but there is something always so charming about the small town city center streets. A handful of old buildings and beautiful old architecture. Alex and John had their wedding at the Ramsey in downtown Joplin. Brick walls, old stairs and floor to ceiling windows! The said their vows in front of all the people they loved and were married by Alex's grandfather. It was beautiful to see the way he saw his granddaughter and was emotional about giving her away with so much care and joy.
After the ceremony I always love to grab the couple and take them out of the chaos for a minute. Let them take in the new world they've just entered of marriage. I love to see the'r overflowing laughter and affection just spill out once they've run back down the aisle. I took Alex and John on a walk through downtown. We walked along the charming city streets just as the sun was beginning to set.
The night was filled with words of love and support from speeches and hugs, to cheesecake from the gods, dancing till your sweaty and groomsmen that made me laugh almost off my stool. it was wonderful way to end a beautiful day of love.
So excited for John and Alex as they enter into this wonderful season of marriage. I wish them the best on their 5 monthiversary and can't wait to see the story that continues to unfold for their family. I hear they've been adding to it with pets every couple months.
2017: Part 2 A Year in Review | The Year of Patience
Cheers to 2018! I know I'm almost a week behind but that's just how I roll. This series of review is so therapeutic for me and a little tradition I love to do for my business. So even when I'm a little behind (or more like a lot behind) I still want to get these posts up and out into the world for myself and those who follow along. This coming year will be called the year of Patience. I've realized over the last couple months my strong desire for goals to just happen now. I never honestly saw myself as an impatient person until I realized how often I was searching for quick fixes and short cuts to my hopes and goals. So this year I've really set my heart on being patient and steady. I've struggled often with the anxiety and doubt that my goals will never be met and that's why I find the word patience to be so healing. I keep telling Chris that I just need to be happy with each victory rather than counting them up and not finding enough.
All of that said I have a lot of hope and resolve for this coming year in both my business life and personal life. And I always find writing out my hopes as a way to make them real, they are no longer passing thoughts but goals that I really do aim to achieve. So here it goes, a few goals I'm hoping for but staying patient about for 2018 they are for both my personal life and business.
First would definitely be my health. I've been struggling with that for quite some time and I'm ready this year to truly be authentic and transparent about this huge part of my life that I struggle with. Gone are the days when I can really forget about whats going into my body, I'm hoping to get focused and be patient with myself as I change the way I see food and wine. With that being said, my second goal would be to see myself with ALOT more grace. So often in the photography world I hear women crying out for self acceptance. Taking self portraits of their flaws and calling it beautiful. I honestly tried this past year to put myself in front of the camera once a week thinking it would be this path to healing. But it was mostly painful and scary and vulnerable. Being in the worst shape of my life and trying to capture the way I saw myself always felt like a disaster. But for 2018 I want to truly love more of my flaws in a way that gives me power rather than weakness and insecurity. Still working on the practicality of this hope but a huge drive for me is to one day have a daughter and to be a reflection of body loving confidence to her. I want her to see herself with love and grace so I know my heart has got to be soften toward myself to be a better example one day. (no I am not presently pregnant, this is more for down the line)
Thirdly I want to photograph what I'm passionate about. I want to capture people who truly get the work I'm trying to do. I also want to meet more people in general. Moving to Durham has been more of a surprising joy than I could have imagined. And my business has in no way felt like it was stalling even though I moved it during the biggest photography season of the year. But their are parts that I'm still trying to grow; Parts that took time in Kansas City and will take time in Durham. These goals are where I need to find patience. I want to shoot double the births in 2018 and half the Weddings. I want to shoot more sessions in people's homes, capturing the true love and joy found when people feel comfortable to be themselves. I want to document more intimate stories of motherhood, not just birth, but the emotional ups and downs of growing a child inside of you and then outside of you.
So there you go three big goals for my 2018 I'm even terrified to write them down. What if they don't come true, now everyone will laugh at me... and thats when I have to say to myself "patience"
2017: Part 1 A Year In Review |
Thankful for Growth
So If you've been following along for a while you know I love New Years. It's the time to really revitalize hopes, perspectives and plans. It's a time to receive all the parts of your year that were blessings and release all the pieces that were hard or painful. I always feel like the process of celebrations with family and friends is the moment I feel that redemption of a new year most clearly.
With each new year I give it a word. A word that I lean towards all throughout year's ups and downs. Last year my word was Growth and it was absolutely stunning how much growth I experienced. I moved for the second time in 2 years, restarted my entire business in a new city and went full time into being a photographer with no back up job or income, I grew in the way I saw love and marriage by accepting the move and trusting that there was a plan and purpose for leaning into a change that felt so counter intuitive, I grow everyday with loving myself and my flaws for who they make me and I opened myself up for growth and change within my passions. (I literally did a 360 last year from pushing toward Weddings at first to moving head first into birth photography)
This year of growth also made me really aware that I'm not nearly as transparent as I could be with all of my followers, friends and clients with how much growth I've experienced in the last couple years. There is something about admitting that "you've gotten better" or that "you've been working hard for change" that scares me. Makes me think people will assume I lied to them before , hopefully that sounds just as crazy to you as it now does in my head. I want to be authentic about how long its taken me to feel stable in this business. It's not something you wake up one morning and say, I think I'll be a full time photographer. It takes a lot of pushing, a lot of hoping and a lot of failure. I won't go into the whole story now because I hope to write my story in all its failure and joy soon. I do want to say that this past year and every year before it have honestly been ones of growth. Whether I was watching for it or not, I was growing and changing. I'm so thankful for growing this business and my personal self this past year, it was painful and beautiful.
Like each year before I've pulled together the photos that I feel were my best, my favorites and the ones that have filled my soul with fire for this art.
They are a mixture of my client work, family and travels. I've also thrown in a couple from my self portrait series I tried to pull together in 2017. (another thing on my to do list is to blog about that) They are in no ways perfect but they are a symbol to me of my growth as I move closer and closer to my goals. They will probably feel like a jumble of emotions, brand, and style. There are some I've never shared before, others I've kept for a special time because they didn't really fit on my business page and others that have been my favorites throughout the year. The order is not as random as you might think, I want the photos to make you feel all emotions, from wonder, to shock, to comfort, to joy. I believe in the power of photographs to invoke feeling and love the drama of switching from black and white to color from birth to travel and everything in between.
Tomorrow I'll also post part 2, name 2018 and talk about the hopes and goals I have for the New Year. Excited to share whats in store.