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2018 A Year In Review: Part 2

2018 A year in Review

Part 2

The Year of Commitment

I am not a disciplined person. If you spent a minute to read Part One of this year’s review you’d see I barely scraped by with New year goals for 2018. It’s honestly never even been a goal of mine (to be more disciplined) but here I sit in 2019 and I really need it. Now the word discipline sounds awful to me, very restricting and suffocating so I’m going with Commitment. I’ve let creativity and honesty be my greatest characteristics for so long and while I love those parts about me, it’s starting to feel like I’m not super involved in my happiness. Because I don’t push myself to stay on track or finish a goal, I’m really just letting my days pass by. I want to be more committed this year to more than just my business and husband because i have the capacity for more. I want to fully commit 2019 to achieving personal goals, lifestyle changes and ambitions. I want to feel successful, this time next year and like some or even all of the intentions below were really invested in.

I want to be active and exercise everyday.

I want to eat better and learn more about what my body can handle and can’t.

I want to limit the amount of time I spend watching tv and comparing myself to others on the internet.

I want to be way more selfless to my partner ( like i want to be one of those wives everyone thinks loves their husband TOO much and does TOO much for his arrogant ass) Because that’s not at all me and probably wont ever be but I want to give it a try :P

I want to photograph more and more births, and meet more women who just understand that birth and art can truly be melded together and that it’s worth it to invest in your moments.

I want to meet more people and like more people unconditionally.

I want to learn how to love myself too and be proud of where I am.

I want to get back into my painting, drawing and journaling. That used to be my way of finding peace, calming anxiety and expressing my heart but now a days I just pour a glass of wine and watch the Office and hope the anxiety will go away.

I want to not sleep in so much (even though I love it) a successful person gets up early and I want a little more feeling of that success.

These aren’t really my “goals” per say because I really can’t take another year of feeling like I achieved no personal goals. But they are my ambitions for this coming year and I am speaking it into existence right now that I will be a more committed person. It doesn’t happen overnight and I’m trying to be more gracious about that but I’m also trying to look at the word committed and discipline not as a sentencing to a boring life but to a better and happier life because I’m putting more into it rather than letting it happen to me.

2018 was a happy year. I got to photograph so many stories that have shaped me for the better. My business grew from a little transplanted seedling to a full on garden that is still growing. I traveled and saw elephants, lions, leopards and all the other African animals so many may never see. I created a project I’m so proud of called The Motherhood Project that allowed me to get creative and learn so much more about womanhood and motherhood; thank you Lindsay for making this past year and project so amazing. So please do not misunderstand my goals for 2019, they are coming from a place of wanting to just be committed to the changes I want to see and opening myself to have the capacity to really experience more.

Thank you to all my people and I look forward to another year creating! If you’ve chosen a name for 2019 I would love to hear it so please leave it in the comments!

And of course this collection of images below are my favorites(atleast part two of my favorites), they are full of the raw and powerful quality I want my work to express. There is nudity and there is blood in some of my work, yes, but I think there is so much power and beauty in our bodies and I just couldn’t censor my favorites. All photos have been approved and released by the client for sharing.

2018 A Year in Review | Hanna Hill Photography | Durham Raleigh Birth and Family Photographer
2018 A Year in Review | Hanna Hill Photography | Durham Raleigh Birth and Family Photographer
2018 A Year in Review | Hanna Hill Photography | Durham Raleigh Birth and Family Photographer
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2018 A Year in Review | Hanna Hill Photography | Durham Raleigh Birth and Family Photographer
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2018 A Year in Review | Hanna Hill Photography | Durham Raleigh Birth and Family Photographer
2018 A Year in Review | Hanna Hill Photography | Durham Raleigh Birth and Family Photographer
2018 A Year in Review | Hanna Hill Photography | Durham Raleigh Birth and Family Photographer
2018 A Year in Review | Hanna Hill Photography | Durham Raleigh Birth and Family Photographer
2018 A Year in Review | Hanna Hill Photography | Durham Raleigh Birth and Family Photographer
2018 A Year in Review | Hanna Hill Photography | Durham Raleigh Birth and Family Photographer
2018 A Year in Review | Hanna Hill Photography | Durham Raleigh Birth and Family Photographer
2018 A Year in Review | Hanna Hill Photography | Durham Raleigh Birth and Family Photographer
2018 A Year in Review | Hanna Hill Photography | Durham Raleigh Birth and Family Photographer
2018 A Year in Review | Hanna Hill Photography | Durham Raleigh Birth and Family Photographer
2018 A Year in Review | Hanna Hill Photography | Durham Raleigh Birth and Family Photographer
2018 A Year in Review | Hanna Hill Photography | Durham Raleigh Birth and Family Photographer
2018 A Year in Review | Hanna Hill Photography | Durham Raleigh Birth and Family Photographer
2018 A Year in Review | Hanna Hill Photography | Durham Raleigh Birth and Family Photographer
2018 A Year in Review | Hanna Hill Photography | Durham Raleigh Birth and Family Photographer
2018 A Year in Review | Hanna Hill Photography | Durham Raleigh Birth and Family Photographer
2018 A Year in Review | Hanna Hill Photography | Durham Raleigh Birth and Family Photographer
2018 A Year in Review | Hanna Hill Photography | Durham Raleigh Birth and Family Photographer
2018 A Year in Review | Hanna Hill Photography | Durham Raleigh Birth and Family Photographer
2018 A Year in Review | Hanna Hill Photography | Durham Raleigh Birth and Family Photographer
2018 A Year in Review | Hanna Hill Photography | Durham Raleigh Birth and Family Photographer
2018 A Year in Review | Hanna Hill Photography | Durham Raleigh Birth and Family Photographer
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2018 A Year in Review | Hanna Hill Photography | Durham Raleigh Birth and Family Photographer
2018 A Year in Review | Hanna Hill Photography | Durham Raleigh Birth and Family Photographer
2018 A Year in Review | Hanna Hill Photography | Durham Raleigh Birth and Family Photographer
2018 A Year in Review | Hanna Hill Photography | Durham Raleigh Birth and Family Photographer
2018 A Year in Review | Hanna Hill Photography | Durham Raleigh Birth and Family Photographer
2018 A Year in Review | Hanna Hill Photography | Durham Raleigh Birth and Family Photographer
2018 A Year in Review | Hanna Hill Photography | Durham Raleigh Birth and Family Photographer
2018 A Year in Review | Hanna Hill Photography | Durham Raleigh Birth and Family Photographer
2018 A Year in Review | Hanna Hill Photography | Durham Raleigh Birth and Family Photographer
2018 A Year in Review | Hanna Hill Photography | Durham Raleigh Birth and Family Photographer

Bergen, Norway

Bergen Norway | Hanna Hill Photography Travel Journal 

Day 1:

Today I share the story of Chris and I's travels to the western coast of Norway. Truly the most spectacular place we've seen. It even rained every day we were there and we still can not get this beautiful city out of our minds. Our close friends who actually traveled with us in Scandanavia for the first half just shared some big news with us this past weekend. It reminded me how I wanted and needed to get this story up on the blog and of course how much I missed them both terribly. 

Bergen is one of those rare places where the architecture and charm is as equally beautiful as the natural glory all around it it. From colorful houses along the coast to fjords that will blow your mind. We started our journey in Oslo and after a few days we trained to Bergen on the western coast. We arrived pretty late in the evening on a Sunday if I remember and after walking from the train station to our house, meeting our airbnb host and settling in, it was too late to eat anywhere(things close down pretty early on Sundays in Europe) So we found this hotdog stand. But this was no ordinary hotdog stand, they served things like Reindeer bratwurst and with fried onions and mayo on top. Weirdly enough I still to this day can't stop thinking about them, maybe it was the starving from all the travel and bickering about trying to find a place to eat before the city all shut down that night or they were that good. I'll never know :)

Bergen, Norway | Hanna Hill Photography | Travel Journal | Raleigh Birth and Family Photography
Bergen, Norway | Hanna Hill Photography | Travel Journal | Raleigh Birth and Family Photography
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Bergen, Norway | Hanna Hill Photography | Travel Journal | Raleigh Birth and Family Photography

Day 2: 

We woke the next morning and walked a little ways down the path to this adorable coffee shop. I insist on all my travels to start each day with a cup of coffee at a local shop. Not because I'm cool but because I can be kind of a brat without coffee :P We also ate strüdle that was handmade each day by the barista(only in europe).

We then went to the boat dock and tried to buy tickets to see the fjords. It was raining and cold and nothing was open that early. So Charlie our friend literally just went up to the first boat captain he saw and asked. Turns out it was the captain who did all the tours and he knew everything about them and how we could grab tickets (though most needed to be reserved far in advance) We were incredibly lucky because those fjords may have changed all four of our lives! 

So Fjords! I'd love to put into words why these things were so life changing but even with the craziest of cold wind and rainy day we all were just moved by the clear majesty. I loved the little colorful houses sprawled all among the gaps in the fjords with no signs of roads to connect them to the rest of the world. We all took turns enduring the forceable winds at the front of the boat like total tourists, but I have no shame. 

 

Bergen, Norway | Hanna Hill Photography | Travel Journal | Raleigh Birth and Family Photography
Bergen, Norway | Hanna Hill Photography | Travel Journal | Raleigh Birth and Family Photography
Bergen, Norway | Hanna Hill Photography | Travel Journal | Raleigh Birth and Family Photography
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Bergen, Norway | Hanna Hill Photography | Travel Journal | Raleigh Birth and Family Photography
Bergen, Norway | Hanna Hill Photography | Travel Journal | Raleigh Birth and Family Photography

The little street we stayed on was something out of a European travel book. The cobble stone streets and bikes literally parked everywhere. I have this obsession with choosing our airbnbs according to pictures :P probably because I'm a photographer but seriously high ratings are great but if you can make me feel like I'm living the culture by staying in your airbnb then I'm officially sold. 

Bergen, Norway | Hanna Hill Photography | Travel Journal | Raleigh Birth and Family Photography
Bergen, Norway | Hanna Hill Photography | Travel Journal | Raleigh Birth and Family Photography
Bergen, Norway | Hanna Hill Photography | Travel Journal | Raleigh Birth and Family Photography
Bergen, Norway | Hanna Hill Photography | Travel Journal | Raleigh Birth and Family Photography
Bergen, Norway | Hanna Hill Photography | Travel Journal | Raleigh Birth and Family Photography

I'm pretty sure after the Fjord we went back to our house and watched Chef's Table. Yeah sometimes we are not cool and not cultured because we prefer Netflix than walking around :P but by the afternoon we were ready to get out and see more. Out host had told us about the gorgeous views from Mt. Flöyen so we thought (on a cloudy, overcast day) lets hike that mountain to see the view :p

I don't want to say i regret that hike because honestly the first part was super cool. It felt like we found a land of moss and trees straight out of a Lord of the Rings movie. But probably halfway up the mountain it started to rain, we probably should have turned back. I mean logically there was no way things would clear up enough for us to see any view while it was raining. But we kept going :P 

It was crazy, it was cold and we were all drenched. there is only so much water proof winter jackets can handle. When we got to the top there was this little shack, that memory of us all sheltering from the rain under this odd little shack at the top of the mountain is very funny to me. That rain did not let up until we were back down from the mountain. We definitely all argued about that hike for all of our own reasons but it's our favorite story to tell now.

Bergen, Norway | Hanna Hill Photography | Travel Journal | Raleigh Birth and Family Photography
Bergen, Norway | Hanna Hill Photography | Travel Journal | Raleigh Birth and Family Photography
Bergen, Norway | Hanna Hill Photography | Travel Journal | Raleigh Birth and Family Photography
Bergen, Norway | Hanna Hill Photography | Travel Journal | Raleigh Birth and Family Photography
Bergen, Norway | Hanna Hill Photography | Travel Journal | Raleigh Birth and Family Photography
Bergen, Norway | Hanna Hill Photography | Travel Journal | Raleigh Birth and Family Photography
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Bergen, Norway | Hanna Hill Photography | Travel Journal | Raleigh Birth and Family Photography
Bergen, Norway | Hanna Hill Photography | Travel Journal | Raleigh Birth and Family Photography
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Bergen, Norway | Hanna Hill Photography | Travel Journal | Raleigh Birth and Family Photography
Bergen, Norway | Hanna Hill Photography | Travel Journal | Raleigh Birth and Family Photography
Bergen, Norway | Hanna Hill Photography | Travel Journal | Raleigh Birth and Family Photography
Bergen, Norway | Hanna Hill Photography | Travel Journal | Raleigh Birth and Family Photography
Bergen, Norway | Hanna Hill Photography | Travel Journal | Raleigh Birth and Family Photography
Bergen, Norway | Hanna Hill Photography | Travel Journal | Raleigh Birth and Family Photography
Bergen, Norway | Hanna Hill Photography | Travel Journal | Raleigh Birth and Family Photography
Bergen, Norway | Hanna Hill Photography | Travel Journal | Raleigh Birth and Family Photography

I remember coming back from that hike and thinking i'm not sure I've ever felt this drenched and never needed a glass of wine so much. I let my camera rest a bit when we went out for drinks and dinner and a little souvenir shopping. Chris and I are not much for souvenirs, it always just adds to our packs and gathers dust. But we do try to grab one little momento from each adventure. 

After being filled with wine and seafood i think we were all calm enough to attempt the Mt Flöyen again. Not hiking this time, we just took the little tram up. Of course by that time it was incredibly clear, no rain and the city lights were unbelievably beautiful! 

That was the perfect way to spend our last night in Bergen. Watching the city lights surrounded by the incredible fjords and coast. We woke up the next day and basked in the culture before we caught a bus and train back to Oslo. That's where our great friends Christine and Charlie headed back home while we trained up the coast to the Lofoten Islands! Hopefully that story and those photos will be blogged soon, but till then just think 60 and over Artic cruise, snow storm in a tiny two door car and me almost losing a finger set against the most beautiful snowy wonderland you can imagine!

Bergen, Norway | Hanna Hill Photography | Travel Journal | Raleigh Birth and Family Photography
Bergen, Norway | Hanna Hill Photography | Travel Journal | Raleigh Birth and Family Photography
Bergen, Norway | Hanna Hill Photography | Travel Journal | Raleigh Birth and Family Photography
Bergen, Norway | Hanna Hill Photography | Travel Journal | Raleigh Birth and Family Photography
Bergen, Norway | Hanna Hill Photography | Travel Journal | Raleigh Birth and Family Photography
Bergen, Norway | Hanna Hill Photography | Travel Journal | Raleigh Birth and Family Photography

Titus L: Birth Story Revisited

Titus L. : Birth Story Revisited | 1 Year later

One year ago today this little one was brought into the world. Photographing births has always been a deep passion of mine; one that truly felt reignited by this little guy's birth. I remember walking out the hospital the morning he was born and literally jumping because I had finally been reunited with my passion. Watching Ellen fiercely work through her contractions, make hard choices, fight through the exhaustion while still maintaining this pure sense of peace and joy that she would soon meet her son was just the amount of empowerment I needed to see. Whatever fear she felt she continuously fought against it. I remember the room being filled with their birth playlist which was this incredible mixture of soft hymns and the most joyful gospel music you can think of. I remember how after sleeping in the hospital room all night we woke up to this gorgeous morning light. I remember looking up to see Jaremy just holding Ellen's hand, laughing and praying with her knowing that their little boy would be there soon. That morning light made each photo and moment that much more hopeful and captivating. It streamed through the room just as Titus was brought earth side and I remember thinking "my god, this job is everything." 

You may be wondering, why is Hanna rewriting and sharing a blog post from one year ago when she is 15-30 blog posts behind. Well thats a great question. I realized that in one year my passion for birth photography has grown like a wildfire in my spirit. My style and desire to capture that authentic, raw emotion that is present in every sacred birthing space has only solidified. That spirit and style was just re-beginning when I wrote this story last year. I was just remembering a passion I held a little captive in my heart. Without even reason I found myself going back through this birth and finding new details and moments I had lost when I posted it before. I found myself reworking the color, light and composition and wanted to be able to share it again in celebration of both growth as a business and my passion for this work. This new blog for me is a reflection, reinvigoration of an already beautiful story just with a new perspective one year later. I obviously won't be able to reblog every birth each year as my style grows and changes but there really was something so special about this birth that made me feel pretty much just called to re share and retell it in a new way. 

If you want to take a look at last years orignal post you can do so through this link.

http://www.hannahillphotography.com/blog-1/2017/3/8/titus-l-birth-story

You'll see that I've added a lot more moments never before shared. It's crazy how much can change in 1 year. Cheers to little Titus today on his first birthday! 

mother labors in hospital birth story Duke Medical center | Titus L Birth Story | Hanna Hill Photography | Raleigh Durham Birth and Family Photographer 
mother breathes through hard contractions labor waves hospital birth Duke Medical center | Titus L Birth Story | Hanna Hill Photography | Raleigh Durham Birth and Family Photographer 
Mom uses the restroom to help keep things moving during labor hospital birth story | Titus L Birth Story | Hanna Hill Photography | Raleigh Durham Birth and Family Photographer 
Dad gives back rubs to laboring wife during long hard birth waves contractions hospital birth Duke Regional Medical Center | Titus L Birth Story | Hanna Hill Photography | Raleigh Durham Birth and Family Photographer 
watching the heart tones of baby throughout the birth story hospital birth duke regional medical center | Titus L Birth Story | Hanna Hill Photography | Raleigh Durham Birth and Family Photographer 
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dad watches in awe of his beautiful wife strongly going through contractions and labor in the early morning | North Carolina birth photographer | Titus L Birth Story | Hanna Hill Photography | Raleigh Durham Birth and Family Photographer 
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mother lies in bed summoning peace and serenity throughout her labor and contractions hospital birth Duke regional medical center | North Carolina Birth Photography | Titus L Birth Story | Hanna Hill Photography | Raleigh Durham Birth and Family Photographer 
mom holds on to the bed as she breathes through an intense contraction, close up on hand with tattoo of her husbands initial hospital birth Duke Regional Medical Center | North Carolina Birth photography | Titus L Birth Story | Hanna Hill Photography | Raleigh Durham Birth and Family Photographer 
husband prays over his wife while she fears pain during her labor and birth he gives her peace and comfort hospital birth North Carolina birth photography | Titus L Birth Story | Hanna Hill Photography | Raleigh Durham Birth and Family Photographer 
strong momma takes a breath in between contractions taking in the morning knowing baby will be there soon hospital birth story Duke Regional Medical Center | North Carolina Birth Photography | Titus L Birth Story | Hanna Hill Photography | Raleigh Durham Birth and Family Photographer 
Mom smiles at her husband knowing baby will be here soon and taking a breath in between contractions | North Carolina birth Photography | Titus L Birth Story | Hanna Hill Photography | Raleigh Durham Birth and Family Photographer 
husband and wife hold hands talking while in between contractions labor pains birth waves | Hospital birth Duke Regional Medical Center | North Carolina Birth Photography | Titus L Birth Story | Hanna Hill Photography | Raleigh Durham Birth and Family Photographer 
mother feels the contraction intensely but stays strong and perseverant through her labor waves | hospital birth story Duke Regional Medical Center | North Carolina Birth Photography | Titus L Birth Story | Hanna Hill Photography | Raleigh Durham Birth and Family Photographer 
peaceful momma breathing through contractions hospital birth story Duke Regional Medical Center | North Carolina Birth Photography | Titus L Birth Story | Hanna Hill Photography | Raleigh Durham Birth and Family Photographer 
morning light fills the birthing space a mom gets ready to bring baby earth side | Hospital birth story Duke Regional Medical Center | North Carolina Birth photography | Titus L Birth Story | Hanna Hill Photography | Raleigh Durham Birth and Family Photographer 
The empowered strength of this gorgeous mother as she moves through the last contractions of her birth completely in the zone in tune with her laboring body | hospital birth story Duke Regional Medical Center | Titus L Birth Story | Hanna Hill Photography | Raleigh Durham Birth and Family Photographer 
dad comforts his wife as she reaches transition of her birth and labor contractions | hospital birth story Duke Regional Medical Center | North Carolina birth photography | Titus L Birth Story | Hanna Hill Photography | Raleigh Durham Birth and Family Photographer 
Mother begins pushing during labor bringing baby closer to her with each contraction | Hospital birth story Duke Regional Medical Center | North Carolina Birth Photography | Titus L Birth Story | Hanna Hill Photography | Raleigh Durham Birth and Family Photographer 
mom changes position during pushing to feel comfortable and bring baby out safely and quickly | hospital birth story Duke Regional Medical Center | Titus L Birth Story | Hanna Hill Photography | Raleigh Durham Birth and Family Photographer | North Carolina Birth Photography 
baby is finally placed on mom's chest moments after baby is brought into the world, with a little cone head and pink skin | hospital birth story Duke regional medical center | North Carolina birth photography | Titus L Birth Story | Hanna Hill Photography | Raleigh Durham Birth and Family Photographer 
mom lets out an emotional expression seeing baby for the first time while dad watches on with love and joy, that beautiful first moment as a family of three | hospital birth story Duke Regional Medical Center | North Carolina Birth Photography | Titus L Birth Story | Hanna Hill Photography | Raleigh Durham Birth and Family Photographer 
those first moments of quieting her little one as he transitions from womb to earthside life their in his mother's arms as dad looks on with so much joy and adoration | hospital birth story Duke Regional Medical Center | North Carolina Birth Story | Titus L Birth Story | Hanna Hill Photography | Raleigh Durham Birth and Family Photographer 
mom holds baby close to her chest as the umbilical cord releases it's remaining nutrients and blood to their little one | hospital birth story Duke Regional Medical Center | North Carolina birth photography | Titus L Birth Story | Hanna Hill Photography | Raleigh Durham Birth and Family Photographer 
baby's fingers grasp their mother's finger for the first time while both parents smile down with joy and emotion | Hospital birth story Duke Regional Medical Center | North Carolina birth photography | Titus L Birth Story | Hanna Hill Photography | Raleigh Durham Birth and Family Photographer 
Baby looks up in wonder at the world he was brought into with his little wrinkly fingers in his mothers arms | Hospital birth story Duke Regional Medical Center | North Carolina Birth Photography | Titus L Birth Story | Hanna Hill Photography | Raleigh Durham Birth and Family Photographer 
baby snuggles up in moms arms right after being born earth side little wet baby headed curls| hospital birth story Duke Regional Medical Center | North Carolina Birth Photography | Titus L Birth Story | Hanna Hill Photography | Raleigh Durham Birth and Family Photographer 
mother smiling with joy holding her brand new baby against her chest hospital birth story Duke Regional Medical Center | North Carolina birth photography | Titus L Birth Story | Hanna Hill Photography | Raleigh Durham Birth and Family Photographer 
baby toes feet reaching out from under the hospital blanket right after being born | hospital birth story Duke Regional Medical Center | North Carolina Birth Photography | Titus L Birth Story | Hanna Hill Photography | Raleigh Durham Birth and Family Photographer 
mom holds baby on her chest breathing in the knowledge of motherhood | hospital birth story Duke Regional Medical Center | North Carolina Birth Photography | Titus L Birth Story | Hanna Hill Photography | Raleigh Durham Birth and Family Photographer 
baby fist and fingernails as he is weighed and examined for the first time | hospital birth story Duke Regional Medical Center | North Carolina Birth Photography | Titus L Birth Story | Hanna Hill Photography | Raleigh Durham Birth and Family Photographer 
little baby getting first exams there in the hospital with little birth baby curls hospital birth story Duke Regional Medical Center | North Carolina birth Photography | Titus L Birth Story | Hanna Hill Photography | Raleigh Durham Birth and Family Photographer 
baby getting his head measured hospital birth story Duke Regional Medical Center | North Carolina birth Photography | Titus L Birth Story | Hanna Hill Photography | Raleigh Durham Birth and Family Photographer 
mom holds baby against her chest keeping him warm right after birth | hospital birth story Duke Regional Medical Center | North Carolina birth Photography | Titus L Birth Story | Hanna Hill Photography | Raleigh Durham Birth and Family Photographer 
baby keeps warm against mothers chest right after being born | hospital birth story Duke Regional Medical Center | Titus L Birth Story | Hanna Hill Photography | Raleigh Durham Birth and Family Photographer 
baby meets grandmother for the first time right after he is born and brought into mom's arms | hospital birth story Duke Regional Medical Center | North Carolina Birth Story | Titus L Birth Story | Hanna Hill Photography | Raleigh Durham Birth and Family Photographer 
mom holds baby close looking out the window reflecting on this motherhood journey | Hospital birth story Duke Regional Medical Center | North Carolina birth story | Titus L Birth Story | Hanna Hill Photography | Raleigh Durham Birth and Family Photographer 
dad holds son skin to skin to make a beautiful connection with him right after birth | Hospital birth Duke Regional Medical Center | North Carolina birth Story | Titus L Birth Story | Hanna Hill Photography | Raleigh Durham Birth and Family Photographer 
baby looks up at his dad with so much wonder and love as he experiences skin to skin with him after birth | Hospital birth story Duke Regional Medical Center | North Carolina birth story | Titus L Birth Story | Hanna Hill Photography | Raleigh Durham Birth and Family Photographer 
baby and dad skin to skin right after birth | Hospital birth story Duke Regional medical center | North Carolina birth story | Titus L Birth Story | Hanna Hill Photography | Raleigh Durham Birth and Family Photographer 
baby looks up at the world while skin to skin with his dad | hospital birth story natural Duke regional medical center | North Carolina birth story | Titus L Birth Story | Hanna Hill Photography | Raleigh Durham Birth and Family Photographer 
baby and dad skin to skin looking into each others eyes | hospital birth story Duke Regional Medical Center | North Carolina birth Photography | Titus L Birth Story | Hanna Hill Photography | Raleigh Durham Birth and Family Photographer 
baby is given back to mom to try and breast feed for the first time | Hospital birth story | North Carolina birth photography | Titus L Birth Story | Hanna Hill Photography | Raleigh Durham Birth and Family Photographer 
mom and baby work on their first latch there in the hospital bed right after being born | hospital birth story Duke Regional Medical Center | Titus L Birth Story | Hanna Hill Photography | Raleigh Durham Birth and Family Photographer | North Carolina birth photography 
baby breast feeds for the first time getting nutrients and milk from his mother first latch | Hospital natural birth photography Duke Regional Medical Center | Titus L Birth Story | Hanna Hill Photography | Raleigh Durham Birth and Family Photographer | North Carolina birth photography 
milk drunk baby looking at the world, his mom | hospital birth story Duke Regional Medical Center | North Carolina Birth photography | Titus L Birth Story | Hanna Hill Photography | Raleigh Durham Birth and Family Photographer 
mom and baby work through breast feeding there in the hospital room while Dady texts in excitement the news of their baby | Hospital birth story Duke Regional Medical Center | North Carolina birth photography | Titus L Birth Story | Hanna Hill Photography | Raleigh Durham Birth and Family Photographer 

2017: Part 2 A Year in Review

2017: Part 2 A Year in Review | The Year of Patience

Cheers to 2018! I know I'm almost a week behind but that's just how I roll. This series of review is so therapeutic for me and a little tradition I love to do for my business. So even when I'm a little behind (or more like a lot behind) I still want to get these posts up and out into the world for myself and those who follow along. This coming year will be called the year of Patience. I've realized over the last couple months my strong desire for goals to just happen now. I never honestly saw myself as an impatient person until I realized how often I was searching for quick fixes and short cuts to my hopes and goals. So this year I've really set my heart on being patient and steady. I've struggled often with the anxiety and doubt that my goals will never be met and that's why I find the word patience to be so healing. I keep telling Chris that I just need to be happy with each victory rather than counting them up and not finding enough. 

All of that said I have a lot of hope and resolve for this coming year in both my business life and personal life. And I always find writing out my hopes as a way to make them real, they are no longer passing thoughts but goals that I really do aim to achieve. So here it goes, a few goals I'm hoping for but staying patient about for 2018 they are for both my personal life and business. 

First would definitely be my health. I've been struggling with that for quite some time and I'm ready this year to truly be authentic and transparent about this huge part of my life that I struggle with. Gone are the days when I can really forget about whats going into my body, I'm hoping to get focused and be patient with myself as I change the way I see food and wine. With that being said, my second goal would be to see myself with ALOT more grace. So often in the photography world I hear women crying out for self acceptance. Taking self portraits of their flaws and calling it beautiful. I honestly tried this past year to put myself in front of the camera once a week thinking it would be this path to healing. But it was mostly painful and scary and vulnerable. Being in the worst shape of my life and trying to capture the way I saw myself always felt like a disaster. But for 2018 I want to truly love more of my flaws in a way that gives me power rather than weakness and insecurity. Still working on the practicality of this hope but a huge drive for me is to one day have a daughter and to be a reflection of body loving confidence to her. I want her to see herself with love and grace so I know my heart has got to be soften toward myself to be a better example one day. (no I am not presently pregnant, this is more for down the line) 

Thirdly I want to photograph what I'm passionate about. I want to capture people who truly get the work I'm trying to do. I also want to meet more people in general. Moving to Durham has been more of a surprising joy than I could have imagined. And my business has in no way felt like it was stalling even though I moved it during the biggest photography season of the year. But their are parts that I'm still trying to grow; Parts that took time in Kansas City and will take time in Durham. These goals are where I need to find patience. I want to shoot double the births in 2018 and half the Weddings. I want to shoot more sessions in people's homes, capturing the true love and joy found when people feel comfortable to be themselves. I want to document more intimate stories of motherhood, not just birth, but the emotional ups and downs of growing a child inside of you and then outside of you. 

So there you go three big goals for my 2018 I'm even terrified to write them down. What if they don't come true, now everyone will laugh at me... and thats when I have to say to myself "patience"

Bergen, Norway | March 2017

Bergen, Norway | March 2017

2017: Year in Review | Hanna Hill Photography | Raleigh Birth & Family Photographer
2017: Year in Review | Hanna Hill Photography | Raleigh Birth & Family Photographer
2017: Year in Review | Hanna Hill Photography | Raleigh Birth & Family Photographer
2017: Year in Review | Hanna Hill Photography | Raleigh Birth & Family Photographer
2017: Year in Review | Hanna Hill Photography | Raleigh Birth & Family Photographer
Bergen, Norway | March 2017

Bergen, Norway | March 2017

Iceland | June 2017

Iceland | June 2017

2017: Year in Review | Hanna Hill Photography | Raleigh Birth & Family Photographer
Stockholm, Sweden | March 2017

Stockholm, Sweden | March 2017

2017: Year in Review | Hanna Hill Photography | Raleigh Birth & Family Photographer
2017: Year in Review | Hanna Hill Photography | Raleigh Birth & Family Photographer
2017: Year in Review | Hanna Hill Photography | Raleigh Birth & Family Photographer
Oslo, Norway | March 2017

Oslo, Norway | March 2017

2017: Year in Review | Hanna Hill Photography | Raleigh Birth & Family Photographer
2017: Year in Review | Hanna Hill Photography | Raleigh Birth & Family Photographer
2017: Year in Review | Hanna Hill Photography | Raleigh Birth & Family Photographer
2017: Year in Review | Hanna Hill Photography | Raleigh Birth & Family Photographer
2017: Year in Review | Hanna Hill Photography | Raleigh Birth & Family Photographer
Oslo, Norway | March 2017

Oslo, Norway | March 2017

2017: Year in Review | Hanna Hill Photography | Raleigh Birth & Family Photographer
Iceland | March 2017

Iceland | March 2017

2017: Year in Review | Hanna Hill Photography | Raleigh Birth & Family Photographer
2017: Year in Review | Hanna Hill Photography | Raleigh Birth & Family Photographer
Lofoten Islands, Norway | March 2017

Lofoten Islands, Norway | March 2017

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2017: Year in Review | Hanna Hill Photography | Raleigh Birth & Family Photographer
2017: Year in Review | Hanna Hill Photography | Raleigh Birth & Family Photographer
Oslo, Norway | March 2017

Oslo, Norway | March 2017

2017: Year in Review | Hanna Hill Photography | Raleigh Birth & Family Photographer
2017: Year in Review | Hanna Hill Photography | Raleigh Birth & Family Photographer
Oslo, Norway | March 2017

Oslo, Norway | March 2017

2017: Year in Review | Hanna Hill Photography | Raleigh Birth & Family Photographer
2017: Year in Review | Hanna Hill Photography | Raleigh Birth & Family Photographer
Oslo, Norway | March 2017

Oslo, Norway | March 2017

2017: Part 1 A Year In Review

2017: Part 1 A Year In Review |

Thankful for Growth

So If you've been following along for a while you know I love New Years. It's the time to really revitalize hopes, perspectives and plans. It's a time to receive all the parts of your year that were blessings and release all the pieces that were hard or painful. I always feel like the process of celebrations with family and friends is the moment I feel that redemption of a new year most clearly.

With each new year I give it a word. A word that I lean towards all throughout year's ups and downs. Last year my word was Growth and it was absolutely stunning how much growth I experienced. I moved for the second time in 2 years, restarted my entire business in a new city and went full time into being a photographer with no back up job or income, I grew in the way I saw love and marriage by accepting the move and trusting that there was a plan and purpose for leaning into a change that felt so counter intuitive, I grow everyday with loving myself and my flaws for who they make me and I opened myself up for growth and change within my passions. (I literally did a 360 last year from pushing toward Weddings at first to moving head first into birth photography) 

This year of growth also made me really aware that I'm not nearly as transparent as I could be with all of my followers, friends and clients with how much growth I've experienced in the last couple years. There is something about admitting that "you've gotten better" or that "you've been working hard for change" that scares me. Makes me think people will assume I lied to them before , hopefully that sounds just as crazy to you as it now does in my head. I want to be authentic about how long its taken me to feel stable in this business. It's not something you wake up one morning and say, I think I'll be a full time photographer. It takes a lot of pushing, a lot of hoping and a lot of failure. I won't go into the whole story now because I hope to write my story in all its failure and joy soon. I do want to say that this past year and every year before it have honestly been ones of growth. Whether I was watching for it or not, I was growing and changing. I'm so thankful for growing this business and my personal self this past year, it was painful and beautiful. 

Like each year before I've pulled together the photos that I feel were my best, my favorites and the ones that have filled my soul with fire for this art.

They are a mixture of my client work, family and travels. I've also thrown in a couple from my self portrait series I tried to pull together in 2017. (another thing on my to do list is to blog about that) They are in no ways perfect but they are a symbol to me of my growth as I move closer and closer to my goals. They will probably feel like a jumble of emotions, brand, and style. There are some I've never shared before, others I've kept for a special time because they didn't really fit on my business page and others that have been my favorites throughout the year. The order is not as random as you might think, I want the photos to make you feel all emotions, from wonder, to shock, to comfort, to joy. I believe in the power of photographs to invoke feeling and love the drama of switching from black and white to color from birth to travel and everything in between.

Tomorrow I'll also post part 2, name 2018 and talk about the hopes and goals I have for the New Year. Excited to share whats in store. 

Bergen, Norway | March 2017

Bergen, Norway | March 2017

2017 Year in Review | Hanna Hill Photography | Raleigh Birth and Family Photographer
2017 Year in Review | Hanna Hill Photography | Raleigh Birth and Family Photographer
2017 Year in Review | Hanna Hill Photography | Raleigh Birth and Family Photographer
2017 Year in Review | Hanna Hill Photography | Raleigh Birth and Family Photographer
2017 Year in Review | Hanna Hill Photography | Raleigh Birth and Family Photographer
Iceland | June 2017

Iceland | June 2017

2017 Year in Review | Hanna Hill Photography | Raleigh Birth and Family Photographer
Oslo, norway | 2017

Oslo, norway | 2017

2017 Year in Review | Hanna Hill Photography | Raleigh Birth and Family Photographer
2017 Year in Review | Hanna Hill Photography | Raleigh Birth and Family Photographer
2017 Year in Review | Hanna Hill Photography | Raleigh Birth and Family Photographer
2017 Year in Review | Hanna Hill Photography | Raleigh Birth and Family Photographer
Bodo, Norway | March 2017

Bodo, Norway | March 2017

2017 Year in Review | Hanna Hill Photography | Raleigh Birth and Family Photographer
Iceland | June 2017

Iceland | June 2017

2017 Year in Review | Hanna Hill Photography | Raleigh Birth and Family Photographer
2017 Year in Review | Hanna Hill Photography | Raleigh Birth and Family Photographer
Copehagen, Denmark | March 2017

Copehagen, Denmark | March 2017

2017 Year in Review | Hanna Hill Photography | Raleigh Birth and Family Photographer
2017 Year in Review | Hanna Hill Photography | Raleigh Birth and Family Photographer
2017 Year in Review | Hanna Hill Photography | Raleigh Birth and Family Photographer
Bergen, Norway | March 2017

Bergen, Norway | March 2017

2017 Year in Review | Hanna Hill Photography | Raleigh Birth and Family Photographer
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Bergen, Norway | March 2017

Bergen, Norway | March 2017

Oslo, Norway | March 2017

Oslo, Norway | March 2017

Iceland | June 2017

Iceland | June 2017

Lofoten Islands, Norway | March, 2017

Lofoten Islands, Norway | March, 2017

2017 Year in Review | Hanna Hill Photography | Raleigh Birth and Family Photographer
Iceland | June 2017

Iceland | June 2017

2017 Year in Review | Hanna Hill Photography | Raleigh Birth and Family Photographer
Iceland | June 2017

Iceland | June 2017

2017 Year in Review | Hanna Hill Photography | Raleigh Birth and Family Photographer
Oslo, Norway | March 2017

Oslo, Norway | March 2017